I really love spending time with my mom but I dont know If i can do it. I HATE arguing with her and the only time we do is because of heather. I am not a good babysitter for her and its evident. Its been a month and nothing has gotten better. I dont want to try anymore and am sick of her behavior and the disrespect she shows me.

Its too hard dealing with her. I have a headache almost everyday from the stress and I am breaking out. This summer was supposed to be fun and I find myself crying at least once a week and missing home way more than I thought I would.

Usually when I am stressed I:
- hang with my dog
- drink a soda
- go to movies with friends
- go to my own room
- watch tv

I cant do ANY of these things! its driving me INSANE I love my mom so much but I dont know how much longer I can live like this. I said I am leaving in September but I might have to leave early. My own happiness needs to come first. I know leaving is gonna break her heart and that will live with me forever but I need to do what makes me happy for once. I always think of others and If I continue to do that with this situation I am gonna burn myself out