I was going through my old computer and came across a paper I wrote for school a few years ago.
For those of you who don't know me, I am just a girl. I am human, and I make mistakes. I am also somewhat responsible. I appreciate my heritage and want to learn more about it sometime in the near future. Who I am is not determined by what others say or think. I am me regardless of the thoughts of others.
If you know me, you know me. There's no big mystery to who I am. I'm exactly who you see. I'm exactly whose walking down the hallway at school. I don't have an image to uphold because my reputation is ever-changing. I'd have to say that I'm really outgoing and energetic. I don’t always think before I speak, and that doesn’t always turn out very well. I tend to let people take advantage of me. I wish I could be totally one- hundred percent honest to everyone's face every second of the day, but I am too nice to do that.
I want to be happy. I want to be that person that's so happy it makes you sick. I don't want to be happy just on the outside. I want to be happy on the inside. I'm working on building a thicker skin. I used to be a cutter and I have realized it never made me feel as good as I do now. I'm not perfect, but I'm the best person I can be. I have the greatest friends in the whole world. I try my best not to hold grudges against them. I hate the way people want to put themselves into a category, or pretend to like/hate certain things to make themselves cool. I like what I like because I like it, and I don't care if you think it's stupid.
Life, to me, is about feeling and not thinking. Life is about hearing every wonderful sound and seeing every gorgeous thing out there. I'm really emotional and sensitive. The smallest things can make me feel amazing, or tare me to the lowest low. Some people would want to change this because the pain is so unbearable, but the truth is, when something feels good, it's incredible and I wouldn't have it any other way. I don't plan a lot because I like everything to fall into place as it goes along.
I do think I'm different than everyone else. I try hard to believe it, but at the same time I know it's not true. If something is truly how you feel inside, and you express it outwardly in your appearance, it will never be received poorly. I do know what love feels like. I've been in love. School wise, I dislike math with a passion and I can't stand Spanish. Other than those classes, I don’t mind school and all the hard work involved. I was going to take photography class, but they canceled it. Writing is one of my other favorite things. I love to read things that are worth reading. I love poetry, and I wouldn't trade it for anything. I express myself through my poems. I love to laugh. In fact, I laugh at everything, even in serious situations. It's probably something else to do with my insecurities. I know I'm going to do something special in the future, I just don't know what it is yet. Until then, I'm just living every day to the fullest to try to feel everything I possibly can. Who am I? I am Jennifer Thorson.